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I don't even remember working on my book last year... and why did I give up again when I was so close to the end ??? My goodness me... talk about subconsciously trying to avoid this work!

I've been working on my book for around 12 years now.  I started it as a part of my Logotherapy studies.  If it wasn't for my logotherapy supervisors at the time I started writing my book, I would NEVER have been able to do it because it required so much very painfully uncomfortable re-hashing over my past! Putting together and trying to make sense of all the puzzle piece memories of my past and in the process, finding my way to healing from it all through my Logotherapy studies and reading that first little book which was such a blessing to my life... "Man's Search for Meaning", by Viktor Frankl (A wonderful life changing book).

Teria, Dr Kanda, Mark, Audrey and Henry all stand out as people who made me feel as though I was GOOD enough and LOVED AND ACCEPTED enough to write my book, and they gave me the courage to start... so, my first draft became a part of my Diplomate in Logotherapy study and it is how I managed to pass that course to receive the title of Logotherapist, which I truly am so grateful for.  A dream I'd never imagined had come true for me.  

“Something meaningful draws us out of ourselves – it enlarges our vision, enriches us and causes us to grow: to become bigger and better than we are.  Frankl quoted Goethe as saying: “If we take a man as he is, we make him worse; if we take him as he ought to be, we help him become it” (Shantall, 2002, p. 19) ~ Life’s Meaning in the Face of Suffering

I must get my book done now!  If it looks like I'm going to stop again, please DON'T LET ME!!!

I'm amazed at how many editing-changes I still made to shorten and improve my book over the last week that I've been at it again... Maybe, just maybe, I was not ready to have it published before... maybe it needed to wait until now to finish it.

A lot has happened since last year! I found out this year, that my horrid stepfather-abuser was still alive and was right here in Johannesburg, somewhere in an old age home! I had to work through that horror! The huge dilemma of whether he should be reported or not, considering he now sits there with Alzheimer's!  It went against everything I believe in, to let him get away with the terrible things he did to me when I was a child, that has affected my life so much!  

Thank goodness for my mentor Teria, for helping me through that time, as I recorded on my blog. (Blog post: "Emotional Dilemma Solved ~ Healing Answers", written 23 February 2020). Her wisdom is phenomenal!

Others might have suggested, forgive and forget... That would have made me so angry and would never have worked! How does one forgive and forget a lifetime of suffering caused by such evil! Only God himself can decide my stepfather's and my other abusers fate... and He will... I believe in Karma, but I also believe very much in God's FAIR judgement.

My work is only, to not end up hating and bitter, or anything like my abusers! It is for me to do the work necessary to rise above what they did, and to be victorious over my sufferings... to take my life-lessons and make something GOOD out of it all... especially in the service of others.

This would be my way of showing my gratitude to LIFE (My God/Heaven), for preserving me and helping me to come this far and to be who I have become today to do the work I am doing now... to never-ever give up! This is my work... nothing more and nothing less!

THE BOOK MUST GET FINISHED THIS TIME AROUND!

Sorry I'm going on, but I really DON'T remember working on the book last year and getting so close to the end of it... AGAIN... it's unbelievable! Facebook memories are something else!

Thank you for sharing.

~ Panayiota

If you are interested in seeing more Logotherapy Dream Interpretation (LDI) posts, you can take a look back on some others I did this year.  I posted about 2 on the 6 March - then one 10 March and another 11 March.  With the most recent posted 25 April.   

To read my paper: "Some Thoughts on Daydreams and Logotherapy", visit:
https://medium.com/@logotherapysa/some-thoughts-on-daydreams-and-logotherapy-b5c8c96be148

For more on our new online Logotherapy courses, visit: www.vfisa.co.za