​Just Journaling ~ ROMANCE & HOPE

Wednesday, 16th May ~ On this evening, my dear friend Miryam, was married in Israel… I was so happy for her.  To see an aged couple finding love and getting married filled me with a wonderful HOPE that I can’t begin to explain.  When I spoke to Miryam about it she wrote back with some beautiful wisdom for me.
 
“Suspend all doubts. "Make believe" until it happens and then just relax about it all. When resistance is gone (no matter how small), when it is all given up, the "universe" brings it to you. I pray for you!  And all women who are struggling. Sending love!!!!!”  
 
I have printed those words out and once laminated, I will hang it to my wall as a constant reminder… there is always hope… it is NEVER too late.  My Cinderella dreams could still come true someday… I just have to allow myself to believe. 
 
Saturday, 19th May ~ The Royal wedding:  As I waited for the royal wedding live broadcast to begin, I remembered lovingly, my dear old British “grandpa Baker”, at the end of the day, when the TV shut down there in Bulawayo, Rhodesia [Now Zimbabwe] (I'm sure that was at around 9pm, being the early days of TV there)… the song, God Bless Our Gracious Queen would play to end the days broadcasts... Grandpa Jack would always rise to his feet at attention, saluting in honour of his queen, until the song was over and singing with it in his strong British accent. Us children got into the habit of copying him. I wonder if my sister remembers that... I must ask her. So, it was one of those traditional things that I believe helped us see our world in a different way. That there were ideals and people outside of our abusive childhood, who we could still respect and stand up for... I'm sure Grandpa's deep love and respect for his beloved Royals made a huge difference in our outlook and lives.  God bless grandpa Baker in Heaven.
 
I loved watching the royal wedding and being caught up on all the romance, fashion and joy along with the crowds on the streets. 
 
As usual, my age old intrusive thoughts caused a sense of fear and dread in me… “Look how happy everyone is… what if a bomb goes off now?” In the past, I would have battled throughout the broadcast with such negative thoughts intruding into what was supposed to be joyful and happy experience for me, but as my healing has progressed, I found that this time, I was able to stop the thoughts quickly and continue to enjoy the broadcast without such threats swirling around in my mind and intruding on my JOY in the moment.
 
I loved the words of Bishop Michael Curry’s sermon.  When I posted it on Facebook, I was immediately met with the negativity of others around the way he delivered his sermon. 
 
I responded to three messages:
“I couldn't say how they were feeling about it... a lot of people love this kind of preaching... we all come from different ways and life experiences... but still... the message was about loving and accepting each other in our uniqueness, warts and all in this world and I guess... that requires another level from us... to see beyond what is not a part of our upbringing, tradition, tribe and culture... that's basically what my latest presentation is all about.
 
“This is just a different preaching style that we are not used to at all. I have seen it before and I don't feel comfortable with it either. So, it's not about other religions and what they do... for me... it's just the message on LOVE that I want to highlight... that's all I want to be able to focus on here, because it was an important message to the world in its’ own right.”
 
“Maybe some of my friends here enjoy this kind of preaching and I would therefore not want the fact that I posted this to insult them by the comments that follow... as you know, I don't often talk religion or politics on my page... both have caused me immense pain and struggle throughout my life. I only posted this, to share the message of love... love and acceptance for all. It's something I really want to work more on as part of my own personal growth needs and goals.”
 
I believe that my friends then understood where I was coming from and why I’d chosen to post this sermon below on my Facebook page.
 
Bishop Michael Curry’s sermon ~ May 19, 2018
 
“And now in the name of our loving, liberating and life-giving God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen.
From the Song of Solomon, in the Bible:
 
"Set me as a seal upon your heart,
 
as a seal upon your arm;
 
for love is strong as death,
 
passion fierce as the grave.
 
Its flashes are flashes of fire,
a raging flame.
 
Many waters cannot quench love,
neither can floods drown it."
 
The late Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr once said, and I quote: "We must discover the power of love, the redemptive power of love. And when we discover that, we will be able to make of this old world a new world, for love is the only way."
 
There's power in love. Don't underestimate it. Don't even over-sentimentalize it. There's power - power in love. If you don't believe me, think about a time when you first fell in love. The whole world seemed to center around you and your beloved.
 
Oh there's power - power in love. Not just in its romantic forms, but any form, any shape of love. There's a certain sense in which when you are loved, and you know it, when someone cares for you, and you know it, when you love and you show it - it actually feels right. There's something right about it.
 
And there's a reason for it. The reason has to do with the source. We were made by a power of love, and our lives were meant - and are meant - to be lived in that love. That's why we are here.
 
Ultimately, the source of love is God himself: the source of all of our lives.
 
There's an old medieval poem that says: "Where true love is found, God himself is there".
 
The New Testament says it this way: "Beloved, let us love one another, because love is of God, and those who love are born of God and know God. Those who do not love do not know God. Why? For God is love."
 
There's power in love. There's power in love to help and heal when nothing else can.
 
There's power in love to lift up and liberate when nothing else will. There's power in love to show us the way to live.
 
"Set me as a seal on your heart, a seal on your arm, for love is as strong as death."
 
But love is not only about a young couple. Now the power of love is demonstrated by the fact that we're all here. Two young people fell in love, and we all showed up. But it's not just for and about a young couple, who we rejoice with. It's more than that.
 
Jesus of Nazareth on one occasion was asked by a lawyer to sum up the essence of the teachings of Moses, and he went back and he reached back into the Hebrew scriptures, to Deuteronomy and Leviticus, and Jesus said: "You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your mind and all your strength. This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like it: Love your neighbor as yourself."
 
And then in Matthew's version, he added, he said: "On these two, love of God and love of neighbor, hang all the law, all the prophets, everything that Moses wrote, everything in the holy prophets, everything in the scriptures, everything that God has been trying to tell the world - love God, love your neighbors, and while you're at it, love yourself."
 
Now, someone once said that Jesus began the most revolutionary movement in all of human history. A movement grounded in the unconditional love of God for the world and a movement mandating people to live that love. And in so doing to change not only their lives but the very life of the world itself.
 
I'm talking about some power. Real power. Power to change the world. If you don't believe me, well, there were some old slaves in America's Antebellum South who explained the dynamic power of love and why it has the power to transform. They explained it this way. They sang a spiritual, even in the midst of their captivity. It's one that says "There's a balm in Gilead..." a healing balm, something that can make things right.
 
"There is a balm in Gilead to make the wounded whole.
 
"There is a balm in Gilead
 
"To heal the sin sick soul."
 
And one of the stanzas actually explains why. They said:
 
"If you cannot preach like Peter,
 
And you cannot pray like Paul,
 
You just tell the love of Jesus,
 
How he died to save us all."
 
Oh, that's the balm in Gilead! This way of love, it is the way of life. They got it. He died to save us all. He didn't die for anything he could get out of it. Jesus did not get an honorary doctorate for dying. He wasn't getting anything out of it. He gave up his life, he sacrificed his life, for the good of others, for the good of the other, for the wellbeing of the world, for us.
 
That's what love is. Love is not selfish and self-centered. Love can be sacrificial, and in so doing, becomes redemptive. And that way of unselfish, sacrificial, redemptive love changes lives, and it can change this world.
 
If you don't believe me, just stop and imagine. Think and imagine a world where love is the way.
 
Imagine our homes and families where love is the way.
 
Imagine our neighborhoods and communities where love is the way.
 
Imagine our governments and nations where love is the way.
 
Imagine business and commerce where this love is the way.
 
Imagine this tired old world where love is the way.
 
When love is the way - unselfish, sacrificial, redemptive.
 
When love is the way, then no child will go to bed hungry in this world ever again.
 
When love is the way, we will let justice roll down like a mighty stream and righteousness like an ever-flowing brook.
 
When love is the way, poverty will become history.
 
When love is the way, the earth will be a sanctuary.
 
When love is the way, we will lay down our swords and shields, down by the riverside, to study war no more.
 
When love is the way, there's plenty good room - plenty good room - for all of God's children. Because when love is the way, we actually treat each other, well... like we are actually family.
 
When love is the way, we know that God is the source of us all, and we are brothers and sisters, children of God.
 
My brothers and sisters, that's a new heaven, a new earth, a new world, a new human family.
 
And let me tell you something, old Solomon was right in the Old Testament: that's fire.
 
Pierre Teilhard de Chardin - and with this I will sit down, we gotta get y'all married - French Jesuit Pierre Teilhard de Chardin was arguably one of the great minds, great spirits of the 20th century. Jesuit, Roman Catholic priest, scientist, a scholar, a mystic.
 
In some of his writings, he said, from his scientific background as well as his theological one, in some of his writings he said - as others have - that the discovery, or invention, or harnessing of fire was one of the great scientific and technological discoveries in all of human history.
 
Fire to a great extent made human civilization possible. Fire made it possible to cook food and to provide sanitary ways of eating, which reduced the spread of disease in its time.
 
Fire made it possible to heat warm environments and thereby made human migration around the world a possibility, even into colder climates.
 
Fire made it possible... there was no Bronze Age without fire, no Iron Age without fire, no Industrial Revolution without fire. The advances of fire and technology are greatly dependent on the human ability and capacity to take fire and use it for human good.
 
Anybody get here in a car today? An automobile? Nod your heads if you did - I know there were some carriages. But those of us who came in cars, fire - controlled, harnessed fire - made that possible.
 
I know that the Bible says, and I believe it, that Jesus walked on the water. But I have to tell you, I did not walk across the Atlantic Ocean to get here.
 
Controlled fire in that plane got me here. Fire makes it possible for us to text and tweet and email and Instagram and Facebook and socially be dysfunctional with each other.
 
Fire made all of that possible, and de Chardin said fire was one of the greatest discoveries in all of human history. And he then went on to say that if humanity ever harnesses the energy of fire again, if humanity ever captures the energy of love - it will be the second time in the history of the world that we have discovered fire.
 
Dr. King was right: we must discover love - the redemptive power of love. And when we do that, we will make of this old world, a new world.
 
My brother, my sister, God love you, God bless you, and may God hold us all in those almighty hands of love.
 
 
Sunday, 20th May ~ Presented “The Tribe and the Wounded Healer” for the third time.  I had such a wonderful Logotherapy supervision meeting with my Logotherapy colleagues’ and family once again. 
 
Amazingly, 6 of the 8 people there had not seen it yet and the group was such a lovely, fun, loving special one. The discussion during the presentation was so intense, that I had to shorten the rest of the presentation by rushing through it and missing out on reading my hand notes due to time restraints. There was enough on the slides to create interesting debate without the notes.
 
I'm one who never encourages discussion, because it scares me to have to find answers... my mind instantly goes blank if people have expectations of me and then I can't answer the simplest of questions... so embarrassing!  But yesterday the group showed me how wonderful discussion could be and I survived and learned an important lesson from them all.  I was actually surprised by all that they had to share... amazing stuff!  So now I will need to work on the presentation once again, this time to shorten it to allow time for discussion.  I love the positive feedback that I received each time I presented. 
 
Lesley who hosted our meeting was amazing... she set out such a wonderful variety of snacks for us to nibble on throughout the day and had a humongous fresh salad especially for me and plain yogurt and an avocado pear.  So delicious!  It was a freezing cold day, so she had us sitting in a room where a wood fire burning which so warm and cozy.
 
What a great day spent with my like-minded LogoFamily… my safe and happy place where I felt totally accepted and loved by all who were there on the day.
 
I recently received a deposit of R300 for another successful Logotherapy dream interpretation and copy of my old Logo-Treasures book of Logo-Quotes.  So wonderful to feel I'm able to help others in some way or another... it makes me very happy.
 
Thank you for sharing with me.
 
~ Panayiota