LOCKDOWN DIARY ~ Day 13

April 8
It’s my beautiful daughter's 29th birthday today and I can't be with her! But we will make up for it as soon as lockdown is over!  I have to admit, which I didn’t write about on Facebook, because I didn’t want to worry my daughter, but I was so sad that I couldn’t be with her.  I was a tad weepy all day!  I love and miss her and her husband, and even their two dogs so much! ♥ ♥ ♥

Happy Birthday to my lovely daughter ❤️ we will be together again soon ❤️
 
Good news
5 ½ hours’ sleep last night... which I am sure added to why I was weepy all day today. I hate when that happens… wake up when it’s so dark… feel so tired I just don’t know what to do with myself, but can’t fall asleep… too much going on in my head! So, I pop a Rescue tablet under my tongue… I already know it’s not going to work… FLIP!!! I Lie there for an hour and finally give up trying… what’s the use! I get up and start my day.
 
But, let me tell you the “too exciting” good news that got me lying awake half the night!
 
The day before yesterday, I received a message on Facebook from someone who I consider to be one of the top Logotherapists in the world, and someone I have a deep respect for ❤️
 
Maria Marshall: “Dear Panayiota, I would like to invite you to be one of the contributors to the book we would like to publish next spring, entitled "Carried by the Spirit-Our Hearts Sing." The purpose would be to illustrate the applications of logotherapeutic wisdom to coping with the pandemic. Experiential texts, poems, essays, thoughts of inspiration would be welcome. Not everyone may choose to write about their lives in detail, some people may choose to write about only an observation, an experience, or a current insight they gained. Some people that I know will write about their lives and they said they will try to do it through the lens of gratitude, of what they are thankful for, or whom they are thankful for in this situation. That can be an option for this project."
 
When I expressed to Maria, how humbled and grateful I was, she wrote
 
“Dearest Panayiota, we have been enriched by your thoughts and writings all along. It would be our privilege to have your contribution included. Looking forward to your submission ❤️”
 
WOW… It’s always been so hard for me to let go of the “invisibility spell” I have always struggled with and carried with me since my childhood. That even though I’ve had poems published in books, and Teria has recently included my story in 10 pages of her book brand new book, ("The Life-Changing Impact of Viktor Frankl's Logotherapy" by Teria Shantall), etc. it is still so hard for me to believe that these wonderful and genuine “visibility miracles” are really happening in my life… it feels completely surreal to me.  I wonder if I will be able to ditch the “invisibility spell” at last, on the day my own book gets published?
 
Hence the lack of sleep last night as I lay wide awake trying to imagine, what I could write that would be worthy of the faith that Maria and her husband have put in me…
 
With an overwhelming sense of gratitude… “Amazing Grace” keeps coming to mind… ❤❤
 
I loved the affirming responses my dear Facebook friends shared with me
June - This does not surprise any of us who are your friends. We see it as a natural step forward. You don't see how wonderful you are my dear Pani....I am delighted for you my friend...much love. ..❤❤
 
Mary-Anne - Absolutely thrilled for you. Lots of love. ❤❤❤ You’re amazing
 
Veronica - You are a SUPERSTAR, an incredibly talented lady. If only you could see yourself thru our eyes ❤️ you are an inspiration to us all 💜… Trouble is, as women, we tend to always put ourselves down. We set ourselves unrealistic goals and always focus on what we couldn't do, instead of on what we have done 😥
 
Debbie - So incredibly proud of you
 
Andrea - Blessings. Thank you for keeping in touch and accomplishing so much during your days. May you know that it is always a blessing to have you for a friend and to keep in touch so we know you are safe and healthy ❤
 
Be blessed and thank you for reading my posts.
 
~ Panayiota