LOCKDOWN DIARY ~ DAY 23

April 18
Today was so wonderful! My youngest sister and I did our annual baking day for Greek Easter, Together-Apart... via WhatsApp. She sent all the ingredients for what we would need for our Easter baking-treat feast.  My brother-in-law, Mario, had grated a ton of cheese and added cubes of cooked meat for us to include in our meal.  He also gave me the most beautiful rolling-pin recently that he’d made with his own hands… such a treasure.  My dad used to be a carpenter, so for me something homemade like this and given to me as a gift is so beautiful… perfect shape and size also!  I love it!
 
With the ingredients that my sister sent over, came a beautiful bunch of flowers… a lovely red rose, olive twigs and leaves and lavender flowers, tied with a pretty red ribbon, as well as four red-boiled eggs for Greek Easter day tomorrow.  I felt that the flowers and red-eggs were the extra special touch that gave so much meaning to their gift of love on the day.
 
The WhatsApp that my sister sent the day before.
“We are still going to make flaounes together… but from a distance.  When everything is ready tomorrow, I will call and then you must come get the dough and the filling mixtures… so when I’m busy rolling and making here, you will be rolling and making there… how does that sound???”
 
Well, for me, it really sounded so wonderful that it brought tears to my eyes, because my heart swelled so big with the sense of love that filled it that I thought it would POP!  I was so happy that my sister had found a way for us to bake together after all.
 
My brother in law and the children helped her on her side, and my youngest son was really helpful on my side also, so it was a very productive and good day, even though it ended up a very busy day also with all the cleaning up afterwards included… it was all well worth it!  My sister said that our 89-year-old dad enjoyed watching them all busy in the kitchen. 
 
Just some of our photos shared via WhatsApp today while my sister and I were baking. 

​A beautiful reminder
An important (for me) memory popped up on Facebook of this exact same day a year ago… what an incredible reminder it was to me of how much I value my family and how our love will never allow anything to come between us!  

​A year ago, things had become a little rocky in our relationship and on my inner-child level, I was struggling greatly because of it.  And when things seemed to be unfixable, I spotted the beautiful green balloon on the roof of my house, and took it immediately as a “healing” symbol, and that everything would be healed in my family… and it was.  So, today, when the Facebook memory of that beautiful green balloon popped up, I realized that I still had it hanging near my computer… a reminder to me, that no matter what, where love is… healing will be also.  It keeps me feeling connected to my family here on earth and my family in Heaven too. 
 
Family are a source of my healing… I value my family relationships greatly and I NEED them to stay close… not only with me, but with each other also.  It is so VERY IMPORTANT to me. 
 
By the end of the day, I’d eaten TOO MUCH! I couldn’t resist those wonderful Greek flavours.  Too much of something, heaven knows what it could’ve been, or… as a result of too much deep emotional experience during the day of baking with my sister, caused my gout to flare up… not too serious, but my left thumb is sore enough to have to wear the thumb guard to sleep.  I will have to be more careful, not to let that happen again.  I say, too much emotional experience, because I did find that the experience of Easter baking with my sister at a distance, had triggered something… I felt tears close to the surface most of the day… I want to say tears of joy… but I don’t really know.  My emotions can get into such a muddle at times… like sometimes, when I’m supposed to be really, really happy, something triggers and I get really, really sad instead… it’s completely out of my control, but I have learned to accept it as part of my emotional make up and just to remind myself of what the true emotion is supposed to be and try to lay claim to it during the mix up in my head!
 
I felt to tune into something logo-inspirational early this morning before the baking began, and found this link to a wonderful show done by Logotherapist, Gavin Harris (A Winning Way).  So much wisdom… I loved this.
https://www.chaifm.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/01/2020.01.07-Gavin-Harris-A-winning-way.mp3
 
To tune into Finding Human radio show every week, go to: 
Finding Human, (Tuesdays at 10-11am on the radio station CHAIFM-101.9) a Logotherapy inspired broadcast, Hosted by a wonderful logotherapist, Sue Jackson
 
For Podcasts from past shows, go to: http://www.chaifm.com/finding-human/
Scroll down the page to select from the podcast list.
 
Thanks for being with me on my journey… I truly appreciate your presence here, be it a silent presence or otherwise. 
 
~ Panayiota