PART 4 – ANOTHER NASTY NIGHTMARE

~ Written, Monday, 3rd July 2017 ~ Continued from last post…
 
This morning, after a night full of dreaming, I remembered the wisdom of my student’s words the day before and how well they fitted with a nightmare I’d had.
 
I know that a lot happened in my nightmare and I wish I could remember more of it, but in the end, with Logotherapy dream interpretation, only what is necessary for the meaning message to be realized from a dream, will be remembered, and the rest of the dream which is often forgotten on waking up, was only there to align one’s spiritual-consciousness with the actual meaning message that they needed to take subconsciously from the dream.
 
Often recent images, symbols, etc. that we have seen and heard in our lives, movies we’ve watched for instance, will help to form our nightmares in order to bring an awareness of meaning messages we need to receive to ourselves for the sake of our lives.  Here we can see how our experiences and spiritual and conscious faculties, come together to guide us towards discovering what we already should know at the set of our soul, in order that we can continue to rise up and go forward, to live our most meaningful, purposeful, productive lives… to live to our full potential.
 
I believe that our dreams are personal revelations, given to us for the improvement of our lives.  If a dream is not remembered when we wake, then I believe that the meaning message of it has already been received subconsciously during our sleep.  If the dream or parts of it are remembered when we wake, then it is important for us to fully face and interpret it to discover the meaning message/s that it holds for us.  Once we have realized the meaning message/s of our dream, then it is important for us to take deliberate action and responsibility towards embracing the enlightening and life changing gift we have been given through the various sensory images and symbols highlighted or used in our dreams.
 
The Nightmare: (whilst reading about my dream, keep in mind, recent events that have happened in my life and how they could have tied into my past, my fears, etc., as all of this helps one to come to a personal interpretation of their dream.  We can never tell a client or person what the meaning of their dream is, but we can inspire them towards finding their own answers for their unique dream)
 
In my nightmare, I was submerged in deep murky water.  In front of me, suspended in the water, staring straight at me was a rotting human corpse.  The rocking ebb and flow of the water, kept pushing the body towards me and away again, sometimes it touched me.  I was feeling very afraid, finding myself stuck with fear, staring back at it, too afraid to take my eyes off of it.  Afraid that it would suddenly come alive and come after me if I took my focus off of it for a second. 
 
Then I woke up.
 
Realizing where the images of my dream came from:
I had recently watched the movie, “The Poseidon Adventure” if I remember right, or some other movie on TLC-TV, where the people had to swim past dead bodies submerged and floating in the water, in order to reach safety. I’d also recently watched a movie where a futuristic, human-looking, robotic house protector had gone bad and started to attack the occupants of the house… and when one of the occupants thought they had killed the robot as it lay motionless, it suddenly woke and grabbed his hand in a vice grip when he got too close… so I guess that’s where I picked up the symbolic image-ideas taken to make up my dream. 
 
I once again, worked on interpreting my dream, knowing from experience that the dream, whatever dream I dream, is meant to guide me towards a meaningful outcome for my current condition – to move me further away from the weightiness of my past… the fears and weaknesses that still persist in me… helping me to continue to transcend what was, in order to allow and invite what could and should become of my life, to enter instead. 
 
In the underwater film I watched, the people in their desperate efforts to save and preserve their lives, had to swim past the rotting bodies that were submerged beneath the water, one or other of the body’s limbs trapped by some fallen debris which had caused them to drown.
 
In the scary robot movie, the man whose arm had been caught by the robot, had to put up a big fight in order to escape the robots vice grip. 
 
My Logotherapy Dream Interpretation
In my life, the threat of losing loved ones is always going to be there – loss is a reality, it is always going to happen in one way or another – some good friendships will fall apart… my mentor might soon announce that she will no longer be coming back this way to train our students, and yes, I might continue to experience the extreme emotional agony of such losses, or impending losses in  my life, but that does not mean that I have to remain submerged and drowning in the vice grip of my past fears and struggles, staring such awful FEAR in the face – immobilized by FEAR!   I cannot allow myself to be a prisoner to FEAR any longer!  I have to keep fighting for my life!
 
I have come so far already in my fight for my life and MUST still find a way to loosen the vice grip of FEAR that keeps holding me back from further progress – that keeps trying to drown me in its’ murky depths. 
 
MY ABUSERS MUST NOT WIN… I CANNOT CONTINUE TO ALLOW THEM TO!
 
FLIP MAN!!!  I’m 60 years old already… how many more years of my life are they going to win over me! 
 
NO!  NO!  NO!!!!
 
I still have the option to continue to fight for MY LIFE!  To find ways to surface and swim towards any shore of hope I can still find… the shore of MY EXISTENCE… MY PURPOSE… To keep climbing MY MOUNTAIN of HOPE and make every effort to someday reach the top!  Far away from those awful and destroying drowning-waters of my past!
 
I CAN DO THIS! 
I MUST DO THIS!
I MUST! I MUST! I MUST!
Because NOTHING is impossible, unless I let it be!
 
This morning, I have woken with a very sore tongue on the left side.  I must have clenched my teeth on it again during the night!  That’s something I do sometimes when there’s a lot of stress. 
 
I’m still sitting without my computer – I am unable to keep my mind occupied with my work, so I’m trying to keep busy with this blog writing in a scrap book, to be typed out and posted when I am connected again… and I’m sorting out loads of long overdue paperwork that has been cluttering up my home for some time. 
 
Up till today I’ve been stuck in the lounge chair for the past week in front of the TV due to the gout in my right foot!  I feel totally frustrated and unmotivated!  Hopping around on one foot with crutches is painful and exhausting, so I’ve been avoiding it… I only got up when I had to, but today I can walk again, although I must be very careful, because the bones in my right foot are still sensitive.
 
Doing the Logotherapy dream interpretation has helped me to feel more positive and I’m feeling a little more hopeful again.  I’m am praying that my oldest son has managed to fix my computer over the weekend and will let me know soon…
 
I MUST AND NEED TO GET BACK TO WORK FOR THE SAKE OF MY SANITY!
 
My mentor sent me this scripture that meant a lot to me today:
 
Isaiah 60:20
Thy sun shall no more go down; neither shall thy moon withdraw itself:  for the LORD shall be thine everlasting light, and the days of thy mourning shall be ended.
 
Thank you for journeying a little further with me today…
 
Onwards and Upwards and my little sister Sharon, so often says to me.
~ Panayiota