​Wonderful news! Petrol fund covered.

Petrol fund covered
I just had to let you know that by yesterday, I had not been able to raise any funds for getting too and from the student workshops next month and I was getting really worried.  I even wrote a letter to our accountant to ask if he would let me have my end of year bonus at the start of November, but I chickened out, feeling embarrassed about asking, and deleted it without sending, thinking I’d wait a few more days first. 
 
Then during the afternoon, I received a WhatsApp message with news of a most beautiful blessing that would cover the costs of my traveling expenses.  I am truly very grateful and feel so relieved and once again, very blessed and loved by LIFE.

​Cosmetic surgery fund
As for the cosmetic surgery I am still hoping to raise funds for, I started to doubt myself and this dream when I did not receive any response to my last post.  Like… who am I kidding!  But I don’t know what happened as I wrestled with the whole notion of not only the possibility of my body looking good again one day by having the excess skin removed, but also, by the thought of maybe, one day, really finding true love… I argued with myself, because, how could I ever trust the love of a man again… how could I even believe that there was someone out there for me… I remember the beautiful song I love… “Somewhere out there” from the film, “An American Tail”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RkI-B2JWSZI
 
There is hope… there has to be hope still… there is always, ALWAYS HOPE.
 
I cannot allow the negative voices from my past to continue to convince me that I am not worthy of love, or to look and feel really good in my own skin, etc. 
 
And so, I have decided, that even if I go to my grave with this dream never having come true, I would also go to my grave, having never given up on it.
 
Once again, I appeal for help, to raise anything between R20 000, to R100 000 for the cosmetic surgery
I would need.  R20 000 would cover the abdominoplasty operation which is so very important for me to get done. Even if it was the only operation I could ever raise funds for, I’d be grateful for the rest of my life to have that horrible, ugly loose skin removed. 
 
R100 000 is what I believe will cover all the operations I would like done… after the abdomen, I’d ask for the loose skin on my arms to be done… and then a boob lift… after that, I’d decide on a thigh skin reduction and face lift… in that order of priority as I imagine it all happening at this time.  But right now, the abdominoplasty is my top priority.
 
Having something to dream about gives my life meaning.  It gives me something to believe in and hope for, so it is good for my soul.  I therefore chose to never give up on my dreams.  If it is meant to be, then it will be… if not… then I will accept that and be content as I leave this world one day, with whatever dreams yet still unfulfilled, so long as I can say with my dying breath… I never gave up on them.
 
My daughter in law bought me a beautifully fitting sports bra a week or so ago and oh my goodness me, what a difference it made to the way I look… like day and night!  I sent her a picture first, of the “after” … with the bra on and it actually looked really great… and then a picture of the “before” without it… she had such a good laugh (cheeky girl!) which had me laughing so much too… I still laugh when I think about her reaction!  There is no ways I’d feel comfortable sharing my life with a man the way I look now.
 
Thank you for sharing with me,
 
Gratefully,
Panayiota